“You call me out upon the waters,
the great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand”
I have lots of favorite songs, but Oceans by Hillsong United speaks to my heart in ways no other song has. It’s been my prayer since it was released. Little did I know how big of a prayer I was praying! “Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders, let me walk upon the waters wherever You may call me.”
Yeah. That’s a big prayer.
That’s not a prayer that will provide the atmosphere for an easy life. But how deep and how amazing is God’s love.
Peter showed great faith when he asked Jesus to command him to come to him by walking on the water. When he kept his eyes on Jesus he did the impossible and walked on water, but when he saw the wind swirling and raging around him he became afraid and began to sink – he was no longer trusting and keeping his eyes on Jesus.
“Immediately he made the disciples get into the boat and go before him to the other side, while he dismissed the crowds. And after he had dismissed the crowds, he went up on the mountain by himself to pray. When evening came, he was there alone, but the boat by this time was a long way from the land, beaten by the waves, for the wind was against them. And in the fourth watch of the night he came to them, walking on the sea. But when the disciples saw him walking on the sea, they were terrified, and said, ‘It is a ghost!’ and they cried out in fear. But immediately Jesus spoke to them, saying, ‘Take heart; it is I. Do not be afraid.’
And Peter answered him, ‘Lord, if it is you, command me to come to you on the water.’ He said, ‘Come.’ So Peter got out of the boat and walked on the water and came to Jesus. But when he saw the wind, he was afraid, and beginning to sink he cried out, ‘Lord, save me.’ Jesus immediately reached out his hand and took hold of him, saying to him, ‘O you of little faith, why did you doubt?’ And when they got into the boat, the wind ceased. And those in the boat worshiped him, saying, ‘Truly you are the Son of God.’ – Matthew 14:22-33
The scripture says the boat was already a long way from the land, beaten by the waves for the wind was against them. Anyone else see where this is going?? I can relate to this so intimately. I couldn’t count how many times in my life have I been out at sea, farther than I should be from my Savior, alone and beaten by the waves, and Jesus shows up, doing the impossible, and He’s already comforting me saying, “Take heart; it is I. Do not be afraid.”
Truth is, just earlier this past year Jesus so lovingly revealed to me the bitterness and selfishness in my own heart. How I was living in fear and worry of the unknown, instead of trusting in His perfect grace. That I was out at sea being beaten by the waves instead of walking toward him in complete faith.
Sometimes revelation hurts.
But MAN does it leave me speechless when the King of Kings meets me in the darkest, scariest moments.
“Your grace abounds in deepest waters,
Your sovereign hand will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me,
You’ve never failed, and you won’t start now”
The funny thing about God is how He is closest in the darkest moments – in the midst of the raging storm. Every time in my life when I was surrounded by crashing, roaring waves – scared, fearful, a worried mess – He met me in those moments without fail, and in the biggest way.
“As for you, you meant evil against me, but God meant it for good, to bring it about that many people should be kept alive, as they are today.” – Genesis 50:20.
This was Joseph speaking, who was left for dead by his own brothers and was now in a position of power under the pharaoh, now comforting his brothers who tried to kill him, forgiving them and extending grace despite how they treated him.
Sometimes people, even our closest loved ones, make decisions that hurt us deeply. Sometimes life throws a curve ball, a spouse gets laid off, financial troubles increase, duties and raising children demand the best of us. Sometimes, well most of the time, Satan just lays it on thick – leaping on us and wailing punch after punch while we struggle to get free. Sometimes things are decided for us and are out of our control. I see you friend. You are not alone. My heart breaks for you.
Now I relate this verse in Genesis more closely to how Satan intends evil for me. Even in the mess and dark moments, I know there’s victory already claimed in Christ. There is grace, even for the worst of offenses, the worst of hardened hearts. What was intended for evil, God will mean for good. I’ve learned to see the trials as a testing of my faith, to make me stronger and, get this, walk in freedom – and as scary as it is, the ability to walk on water and do the seemingly impossible, because of Christ’s power.
The reality is this – Satan tries desperately to make it seem like you can’t escape his left hook, that you’ll be drowned in the waves, but Jesus has already defeated him. He has absolutely no victory over you. Your circumstances have no victory over you. He cannot even touch you for he fears the very name of Jesus so much. “If God is for us, who can be against us?” – Romans 8:31. He is like an ant compared to a lion. It’s just not a fight at all in the end.
“Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior”
In the hardest moments, God is closest. Whatever you are going through, you are never alone. Jesus knows you are at sea, broken and tattered, and He is walking straight for you in the midst of your storm, saying, “Take heart; it is I. Do not be afraid.”
“The Lord is close to the broken hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” – Psalms 34:18.
As much as I’d rather live an easy life without burdens, trials or hardships, I am learning to be thankful for the trials because they bring me into the sweet, safe embrace of the King of Kings. When I step back, quiet my spirit, and lift my eyes to heaven, I can almost hear the roar of angels. I can’t wait to hear the worship in heaven. I can feel the strength and grace of the Holy Spirit flowing in and through me.
“For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us.” – Romans 8:18
As I step back, perspective increases dramatically, and once overwhelming circumstances, the storm raging around me, becomes much less scary. It allows more room for grace for those who have hurt me, the ability to understand that very someone is also hurting in their own way, and for circumstances beyond my control, no matter what it is.
“…for I have learned in whatever situation I am to be content. I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance and need. I can do all things through him who strengthens me.” – Philippians 4:11-13.
“And I will call upon Your Name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise, my soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours, and You are mine“
When the storm comes, and it will, I encourage you to keep your eyes on Jesus and trust in Him. Without fail, every time I’m in a storm of my own, when I take my eyes off Jesus and start to fear the raging waves that might overtake me, try to make sense of the storm, or cower in the wind, I start to sink. But when I keep my eyes on Christ I claim victory and freedom in whatever circumstance (even the little ones!). This part of scripture has never been more near to my heart than it is now and I am so thankful for a Savior who gives me the power to overcome even the worst of things and walk on water in His embrace.
God will do amazing things in your life if you pray this prayer. I promise you. It won’t be easy by any means, but it will be so rewarding. My prayer is to be led by Christ where my trust is without borders, where circumstance only strengthens my faith, and to be a light even when I’m walking through darkness.
“Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders,
let me walk upon the waters
wherever you may call me
As always, please feel free to shoot me an email or comment below if there’s anything I can be in prayer about for you!